- 29 of Abril, 1995 – Saturday (10 months as a missionary). Quito Ecuador…. “Today was a day I soon won’t forget. I got up today with a weird feeling. Almost the same as yesterday. I felt a little weird inside & spiritually…..confused. I just didn’t feel complete as a missionary or like something was going to happen! My thoughts were all over the place, and I had a feeling to cry. It was as if something really big was going to happen. I prayed for strength, to have much more of the Spirit, to be a better missionary. I promised I’d quit doing the little sins & that I’d control my thoughts. Elder Hanks too felt really unusual. Well, we left the house to catch a bus. Elder Pickrell & Fernandez told us that a boy had been hit by a car. Well, we saw the crowd gathered and I had a feeling that this was what the Lord wanted me to see. To wake me up. Well, Elder Hanks & I looked & there was a boy, with a newspaper over his body laying down. All you could see was blood and his brain 5 feet away. Needless to day I was big time shook up and started to think of life, the plan of salvation, death, my family, and I started to evaluate my life. I need to make a lot of changes. Life is so fragile. It helped me realize how close each & everyone of us are close to death. I re-evaluated my way of living & have decided to make a few changes. I know that the Lord has something big time prepared for me. I think he wants me to shape up so that I can be a better instrument in His hands. I don’t know exactly what he wants me to do, but he sure is preparing me to find out. He’s humbling me and is helping me to remember Him. I pray I’m worthy for whatever is going to happen, and ready.” – Clinton Brown Missionary Journal